Lord Jesus--That word "If" constrains me. It was used by the this father with a son oppressed because he had come to the place where he did not trust that God would in fact intercede on the behalf of his son.
So often that is where I find myself and I allow my understanding of the past to impact your future work in my life. There is no question that you are trustworthy...there is no question that you love with an everlasting love. I loose track of the fact that my perspective of the past is twisted. I am not an accurate reporter of your grace experienced in my life. I don't see it all and can't understand it all. Sometimes I can't even see it all.
So the growing edge is to trust even when I don't see it clearly...or don't understand it. Will never understand it this side of the pearly gates. Trust and praise become the default...not "if."
That is the growing edge. Praise and trust release your work with in me, "if" limits, constrains and confines.